Don't Forget to Breathe

Stress. It's a part of my life. A big part of my life. It makes me cranky. But, then, a lot of things do. I don't sleep well, my back is in knots, I feel my breathing change. So many things to do. But I can't do certain things until other things are first accomplished. I have to wait for these other things. I hate feeling out of control. I hate it when things depend on other people. I hate waiting. Waiting makes me stress out. When I stress out, my diet (not diet diet, normal eating diet) goes all to hell. The combination of stress, bad diet, lack of sleep wreaks all kinds of havoc with my body. Most especially my skin. I break out when I'm stressed. I've been breaking out. I'm not a happy camper. That makes me stress out more. It's a vicious cycle.

People always tell me that I seem so laid-back, relaxed, together.. I'm hardly any of those things. I just have a great poker face. Really. I'm so good at hiding what I'm feeling that it's rather sad. When I think I'm giving it all away-- my face is showing everything and I'm embarrassed about it (Can't help that, I was raised that way. We do not show how we feel. It isn't proper.)-- I might, in actuality, be showing only a glimmer of what I'm feeling. Or so I'm told. I don't watch my self in a mirror constantly so I can't know for sure.

Anyway, I need to get zen in a bad way. I'm a mess.

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On a lighter note, some Emmy's talk. I watched most of the Emmy's last night. I flipped to Dead Like Me for a while and then flipped back to watch the last bit of it. Here's an Emmy's blog and an article. The whole thing, the show, felt rushed. They played that "Shut the Hell Up, Already!" music way too soon. I think everyone giving a speech was cut off by it. Seemed rather rude of them. There were some funny moments, unfortunately nothing scripted. Why do these awards-type shows kill all the funny?

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Oops?:
She did it again. Brit done did got married this here Saturday. A look at her possible future. Check out the groomsmen. Classy.

Uh?:
A, umm, goat beauty contest? Whatever floats your boat!

Science is scary/fun:
Scientists to study 1918 killer flu virus. Sounds like the beginning to a horror movie, doesn't it? The really disturbing part? They're infecting monkeys with the virus grown from tissue exhumed from victims of the epidemic.

Woohoo!:
Man sells empty beer can on ebay for nearly $11,000. No, J, no one will pay that much for your empties.